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“life will be better in spring”

First blog of 2015

19 February 2015 || 4:10 AM

It has been awhile since i last updated this blog but well, i'm back.

As you can tell, i have been busy with school, cca& basically with life. Hah!

Well life has been a tough since last year September 14.

Last year has alot of sweet and also bitter moments. November theres, competition called Mega Perdana 2015 but it was semi-finals when we entered. We managed to make it to finals. Long story short, we lose but it's okay It has been an pleasent moments being able to be apart with the Durbar family. "7 kali, pun kalah" HAHAHA! World of dikir barat. I don't think people know about it or understand it.

So much had happened among me, my friends and also Shaa. Basically, we broke up and after few months, i moved on. People might be asking me why didn't i delete the posts about him. It's because seeing the past made me stronger and the person whom i am now. And after those heartbreaking moments, i fell in love with someone i used to had a crush on. HAHA! Someone who showered me with his love& affections. At first, i can't seem to believe that he could be the one who cared but as time goes by, i could tell that he really do. Funny huh!? But what's funnier is that i used to like him until i saw him with someone else. So i tend to back off, obviously who wants to ruined someone else relationships or so called his/her date. Then after i guessed about 8 months, i feelings towards him came back. Gosh!

He told me that he has been waiting for me, hard to believe it but it's good to be true. He confessed and i told him everything about me and shaa. Okay, let's called this 'someone' as Akiid. And yaaa, akiid has been there for me during my hard times. We have turned 4th, alhamdulillah amin. i love you, akiid sampoii.

Okay, a new year and new goals. And yes, 12 January i started my internship. Well, at first it has been a good experience but recently it has been hard as i've gone through tough times at work Haiss :'( He pacified me and told me to stay strong and also my bunch of friends whom i close with and also my lecturer. Thanks to them, i don't think i could continue my internship till now. But its too early to say this huh. Well, i have few months till it ends. Endure is what i have got to do right now. So much commitments i have. Which i have to managed my time for Sri Ratu, work and also, Dwi Durrah. Insya'allah all those sarcrifising of my time, it's all worth it. So much responsiblities i have to face.

More posts to come, insya'allah.

Bye for now.

xoxo, Dewianaa

✨Euphoria Concert✨

14 September 2014 || 8:19 AM

School life

04 August 2014 || 7:14 AM

Wasted a year waiting for school. I decided to work for few months. Till early this year, i tried to apply for school again. Just trying my luck. I didn't expect to receive a call from a teacher. I still remember what my CA say. HAHA! So funny sia~
Early this January, i started school after a year wasted. Gosh. I felt so different. As i'm used to working life.

First day of school, i'm so 'blur sotong', went to school with a face full of worries. As idk what to expect on that day. Okok, as i arrived in the school. Totally a different new environment. Big school, new friends& new classmates. Gosh~ Brand new life. Went to indoor sports hall, when i'm heading there i saw this girl was having the same problem. Then we went up together, waited for the whole class. While waiting, there's one big group of Fitness boys approached us. Being teased on the first day, what a day hah. They kept teasing me, asking what's my fullname, what's my course& where's my classmates. Urghh. Annoying them is annoying.
Few mins after, saw my new classmates. Being introduced to them one by one. Their first question they asked was "Are you chinese?". I said "i get that a lot". I'm getting used to people first impression. HAHA~
Everything was going well till one period of time, two of my classmates fought. Fight over small thing. Wth seriously. After that they bring me around to explore the school, go for lunch& slack at piazza. That feeling of awkwardness was still there but i acted normal. Good hah.

As days past, i adapted to the environment& my havoc classmates. Can i say that i'm happy to have classmates like them? Haha. Since the day i entered class till now, i still love them.

Raya 2014

02 August 2014 || 7:23 AM

✨Selamat Hari Raya✨

|| 7:20 AM

This year raya, i felt different. As i have many challengers to overcome. Until i had the thought of not celebrating it. The feelings is totally different, not like the past. "Dah tak meriah" tu orang cakap.

1st day of Syawal, everything seem okay. Woke up at 12pm, then get myself ready. Getting myself fancy and beautiful for that day. Didn't had the chance to eat. Around 1.30pm, we went out of the house. First house was grandma's house at Yishun. My mum's side. Reached there, as usual feeling so awkwad. Get some colletions just in one house. Haha, being lucky. Second house was my dad's religion teacher at Khatib. Ate alot such as ketupat, rendang, ayam masak merah. Mmmdaappp~
After that, we went to my aunt's house at Simei. But this time was my dad's side. And guess what? When we arrived at her house, everyone just woke up. Kecoh~
My cousin was getting ready and i seat inside her room. Took some selfie, touched up my makeup& listen to music. Around 5pm, everyone is done getting ready. Fourth house at my another aunt's house at Simei also. After that we went to Changi, fifth house. Nothing much. Sixth house, Pasir Ris. Aunt's house. Ramai seh dalam rumah makcik aku. Last house was at Tampines. Around 12.30pm, went home. Due to school on the next day.

Ohana

01 August 2014 || 11:43 PM

Hanapiah's family.

I'm blessed to have my parents seeing me growing up. They are my pillars& strength. Eventhough things gets rough sometimes but i still love them. We had some disagreement, we will end up forgiving each other. We gone through thick& thins together as a family. That's why i won't want to lose them in my life.

Blessed

|| 11:00 PM

Me and Shaa, started talking during training and through phone. Then one day he confessed that he had a crushed on me since the first day of dikir training. We literally had the same feelings. Then said that we can take things slow and see how it goes. And so we started dating~

On June 11, me and Shaa was having our conversation at night. Suddenly, he was acting so weird. He started asking sort of questions. Didn't expect anything to happened. Last question he asked was "will you be mine?" , i thought he was kidding and so i asked him to stop joking around. He said "do i sound like i'm joking?" , i was totally shocked and speechless. Around 1.14am, i replied him. And we started being in r/s. All i can say i'm blessed eventhough sometimes he such a pain in the ass. But i still love him ok. We have overcome many challengers and staying strong.

Hello August

|| 10:40 PM

It's been long i didn't blog. But oh wells, i'm back. So yaa, starting fresh.

Been busy with school recent months. First year in Pastry& Baking course. Alhamdulillah~
I overcome many challengers this past few months. On February till end of March, I was having a breakdown. But i managed to move on with life. And so my friends was there to support me. Can i just say that i'm blessed to friends like them? During that period of time i was making myself busy with malay dance, school& family. On May, i met my old friend in school. Gosh. Didn't expect him to be in the same school as me. But he's in 2 year there. Then we started to hangout together for quite some time. Then suddenly he confessed that he had feelings towards me. I was shocked. And we started dating few days. And i realised that i didn't had feelings towards him. My feelings towards him was 'just a friend' not more than that. And stop dating on middle of June.
During the month of April, i started to take a new CCA. Because i wanna try new stuff such as dikir barat and so i quit malay dance. Then first day of training, the juniors were introduced to senior. And i had crush on my someone. Omg! He's cute. I kept looking at him and noticed he kept looking at me. Then during break, my senior called me. I approached her and she asked whether i've ever act on TV. And i said no, then she said that my face like familiar. Suddenly she introduced me to one of the dikir barat guy named Shaa. As time goes by, we started to talk. And we started dating for 2 months. June, had competition. Sri Ratu Wilmana won for the first time. Happy us is happy. But sadly, Kemudi Wilmana lose. Okay, enough said.